If you have questions about the voiceovers just ask. I frustratingly completely lost my full transcription of them. Please check out this Unlisted vid for a version without all the text explaining the scenes, a cleaner and easier to watch copy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynTojc7qsFU
This is my entry for the 3rd and Final round of the Who You Are contest GlowingAprilSky has been hosting, season 2. The round was called "Journey Backwards" and the rules stated here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVJHoaJ-cDE explain: "Start from where you are now, and go back to the beginning of your story. Show me all about you and your story." It's still the deadline of February 4th in Pacific Time Zone... so I guess I made it! I cut it close and didn't get enough sleep before heading into work but at least I did it.
Song: Somewhere I Belong
Artist: Linkin Park
33 Fandoms Included (in order of first appearance):
Sirens, Chasing Life, The Fosters, BoJack Horseman, Parenthood, The Office (US), Skins Fire, Heroes, Criminal Minds, Grey's Anatomy, This Is Us, One Tree Hill, Glee, Nashville, Gilmore Girls, Smallville, Pretty Little Liars, Six Feet Under, Switched at Birth, Veronica Mars (film), Brothers & Sisters, ER, Castle, Sherlock, Prayers for Bobby, Private Practice, Shameless (US version) [accidentally left this one out of the end credits, whoops], The O.C., Life Unexpected, Jane the Virgin, 13 Reasons Why, The Vampire Diaries, and Bridge to Terabithia
Starting off with where I'm at currently in my life, I just turned 28 years old and I'm:
1. starting to do real Asexual Activism including last weekend I presented at one workshop and at one caucus at the Creating Change (an LGBTQ) conference in my city, I'm
2. employed and doing well at my administrative assistant type contractor job in a government building, I'm
3. learning to face my grief over my friend perpetrating a murder-suicide. See this video for more info: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGPFGnZ3XEE
4. I live with my wonderful dad as an adult with no intention of moving out anytime soon, and my dad has been having a few health diagnosis things lately and needs heart surgery to put in a defibrillator very soon
(Now those 4 are all kinda overlapping and at once. I'm trying to do this whole vid in reverse-chronological order, but my dad specifically found out in December he'd need to get a defibrillator ASAP so that a fairly likely sudden heart event will, instead of almost certainly killing him, much more likely him surviving it, surgery has now been scheduled for February, whereas it was still the end of November when my suicidal podcasting partner murdered his wife before ending his own life. But my grief over that friend of mine I did a podcast with, the part of this that is “my story”, is an ongoing thing (as grief often is)-that spans both before and after me finding out about my dad's recent news with his health. Similarly ongoing is me living with him as it's a “for many years” situation that's still important to capture SOMEWHERE for an autobiographical vid. Etc. So I was trying my best and picking when and how to capture a lot of this.
The car crash happened when I was distracted and near-tears over my breakup because of the music I was listening to too intensely and I think that's one of the "life events in my story" that I won't be forgetting any time soon.
So much of this vid is more personal than I can explain, little choices of scenes that ring truer than you could even know.
I think blogging helped me a lot with processing my asexuality and my mother's abuse, and I did it for years and still do it. I started about my mom on tumblr in 2010 even maybe but my real WordPress blog I started in 2014.
Around 1:43-1:48 in the video is me having started attending Asexual Meetups in mid-2014! Which is a HUGE deal, all my closest friends since then were pretty much from that group plus I organize the meetups a lot of the time now, host in my house etc!
Right after that, 1:48-1:52 I kinda "gloss over" my uncle's suicide which really was a pretty huge traumatic deal, and I still am grieving him in some ways, of course I am, he was such a great guy. I went on a suicide prevention walk last summer (2016) with him in mind but that didn't make it into the video, eventually I'll finish a full vid themed just around loved ones of suicidal people, I already started such a vid around then...
I really stressed before I knew about asexuality about being a 22 year old person who had never been kissed, being a 23 year old virgin, about being a social failure. I believed the amatonormative idea's like what John says to Sherlock ( https://everydayfeminism.com/2016/04/amatonormativity-expectations/ ) and I tried online dating and finally went on a date and had a first kiss, as soon as I healed from my foot surgery.
(See pinned comment for the rest of my description. ;) )